For a celebrity, Kesha has been pretty open with her decision to go to rehab. She voluntarily signed up for treatment for an eating disorder. It’s been four months since she left rehab and the pop singer is telling all about her experience.
The essay Kesha wrote detailing her experience was written for an issue of Elle UK. Kesha knew her body was telling her she needed help and it wasn’t because of her busy tour schedule.
The scariest part for her was the first day and when people would find out she went to rehab.
She explains that she knew what she was there for, but she did not want people assuming she was there for other reasons.
Kesha writes, “Sure, I’ve written songs about partying, but my dirty little secret is that I’m actually incredibly responsible.”
“I take my music and career very seriously, and certainly didn’t land in this situation from partying. But I was cut off from the outside world and I imagined people making up stories at a time when what I really needed was support.”
If you know Kesha, you know she is really into being an individual. “I’ve always tried to be a crusader for loving yourself, but I’d been finding it harder and harder to do personally. I felt like part of my job was to be skinny as possible, and to make that happen, I had been abusing my body.”
The 27 year old singer blames a lot on the music industry for their high and unrealistic expectations of what a body is supposed to look like.
Kesha turned to her music to write empowering messages, but after a while she felt like a fraud. “We R Who We R” and “Warrior” were not enough to get her through. She says, “I felt like a liar, telling people to love themselves as they are, while I was being hateful to myself”.
After being in rehab for two months, Kesha started to feel much different. She says she could focus more on her music and happiness and not on what she looked like.
Kesha says she has more fixing to do, but thinks that by sharing her story she can help others going through similar things. It is important for her that she is “part of the solution, not part of the problem”.